Sunday, April 10, 2016

God is Good.

Let me just preface this post by saying God is so, so good. I had a really rough week a couple of weeks ago, as mentioned in this post, and I kind of wanted to update y'all on what all has been happening in my life. It started off with an interview Monday morning, for what I initially thought was my dream opportunity and ended with me being ecstatic about an new opportunity that I never would have been ecstatic about before.

Let me explain. I am currently majoring in fashion merchandising and for my program I need an internship in order to graduate. Well, my plans all throughout college and up until this week were to do whatever I could to go spend my summer interning in London. I applied for this internship program in London back in February and was ecstatic when I got accepted, it suddenly seemed like all of my dreams were coming true, and I was finally taking my life into my own hands.

I was super excited to make a post on here about, but I wanted to wait until my plans were more concrete before I started posting it everywhere.

I had an interview Monday morning (almost three weeks ago now), and that is when my world came tumbling down. The interview was with a PR company in London. Which to be completely honest I have never thought about PR before in my life, I am not really even sure what a PR company does. But, I was trying to be opening minded with the opportunities this program had to offer.

Nonetheless, I did the interview and immediately called my mom after in tears. Which was when I first voiced my uncertainty with my plans to go to London. I was overcome with the idea of maybe going to London this summer wasn't a good idea, and just confused about my emotions and whether if it was fear or God calling me in a different direction.

Come Tuesday I decided to start contacting places near home, just to see what would happen. I sent out a ton of emails to a bunch of local boutiques and ended up getting a good amount of responses, which I was super surprised about. I was also surprised that I was more excited about these opportunities near home than I was about my "dream" London internship.

Throughout all of this I was praying and trusting in God that it would all work out. I can't say it was easy, as I am human and I like having answers and I like having answers immediately. I prayed and prayed that He would give me a clear direction of where He wanted me to go. All the while trying to be open minded towards either direction.

Now, to clarify about the interview with the PR company. It's not like it went terribly because on Wednesday I found out I got an internship with this company. So, I had this London company interested in me and all of these local boutiques near home interested in me.

I already had plans to go home that weekend for Easter, so I was able to meet up with one of the shop owners and was basically offered the position the second I walked in the door. Also, she was asking me if I could do basically all of the things I wanted to do, such as the visual merchandise display and social media. Just having all that spelled out for me made it clear that, that was the direction that God wanted me to go. God is so good.

While it's hard to say no to a dream that I initially thought was right for me and what may seem like a "once in a lifetime opportunity." It's easy to say yes to God and trusting God with His plans for my life. While it is sad to see a dream die, I know that means that God just has even better plans for my life and I honestly feel like I am right where I am supposed to be.

This past week has just been such a great reminder of just God's character. God is so good and He does not leave me stranded, He walks through the storm with me and guides me. 

"For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans for welfare, and not for evil, to give you a future, and a hope." Jeremiah 29:11

This whole experience has been such a blessing. God has been so gracious in showing me the opportunity at home. I can easily regret even trying to go to London, but I know if I never tried to go to London I would not see the opportunities at home as opportunities.

While, I still don't know exactly what this summer has in store for me; I am trusting in the Lord and in His plans for my life. For I know His plans for me are far better than my plans for myself.

Hope this rambly story encouraged someone out there!

Thanks for reading!!
xox,
Amanda

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